Tuff day today. We got the call from the hospital that they had a bed open and insurance approval for my son's inpatient treatment. Quick run down on him is he 12yo has Autism - low functioning, non verbal, PANDS, and severe self injury. I kept it together for the most part until we tried to leave and he started crying "go home". I had to pull my wife out of the room for my own sake aswell as hers. This is the first time he has not been with us since he was born. My wife and I are trying to stay busy, but are having a hard time finding something to do with ourselves. One of us have been holding him 24/7 for most of the last year. I found myself pacing around the house. Even normal things like eating dinner was weird since I normally hold and feed him at dinner.